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I can't pretend that I didn't do it. Obviously, I did as it's staring me in the face. But I had to do it. Everyone needs light in life. Everyone needs that unmatchable feeling of illumination. To be cast out of shadow and live in the energy beating down on your face. So, I stole it. It's not like anyone's going to miss it, there are plenty. People may question my motives and maybe deem me as less than the rest. Like somehow, I'm less of a human being for stealing. If anything, I believe thievery makes one more human.

It's something we all have, yet most of us choose to pretend to be better than what we really are. All of us play this charade that we're upstanding human beings who want peace and crave a hand holding across the globe. The truth of the matter is that no quicker than a dog runs to a bag of dog food do we want to see a person die. We make it socially unacceptable to murder, but it runs in our blood. It's pouring through our very veins. Through your veins as you read this. You may think to yourself: "No. I could never do that." But you don't have to pretend for me or for yourself or anyone else. Take two seconds and dwell within your inner self. You know deep down that you're a killer. You're a murderer. It's buried deep within us, instinctually.

When no one is looking, you love it. You live in that underlying instinctual self. Your eyebrows furrow and social yes and no's fly out the window. And you can't tell me that it doesn't feel...phenomenal... to be your true self. To be what you were born to be. Human beings have this concept planted deep within their consciousness from the beginning of their physical lives that they are not to steal, kill, etc. Were there no government, no one patrolling the streets, I think we would all do what we had to do to survive pretty quickly.

This brings me to another point. What is the point of surviving? What is our end game? So we keep the human race around for another couple thousand years. Then what? We achieve nothing more than we have in the past 2000? Only recently have we jumped ahead and found all this science and electronic know-how. But where did it all come from? Why did it appear out of nowhere after thousands of years of nothing. Stone buildings, simple machinery.

A mere 200 years ago we were curing sicknesses by sucking the blood out of the ill. We went from dumb as rocks to advanced technological people who can wire circuit boards no bigger than your thumb nail and watch full movies on a screen that fits in your pocket. Where did we come from? Why are we here? What have we done as murderous primitive beings to deserve such blessings? Is there a God? Or were we created by way of genetic mutation and simply deemed our creator who had the knowledge of such mutation as a God who traveled through space from planet to planet?

I'd like to know.